Subject: Oh look now, there you go with hope again...

I stood outside, on the balcony, Vindicated playing in the background and rain pouring steadily in front of me. The cold wind blew into my face and I felt strangely refreshed. But at the same time... it didn't blow all my troubles away. I realised then that no matter how hard I wish, I couldn't wish time backwards and do things all over again. I could only make up for it by living in the present.
I wish I could walk out there with the cold rain falling on me to help me wash away my past... or wash me away into the past.

Living in the present is hard. Right now, trying to cry is harder.