It's actually the 28th of July 2005. I'm using this post to reflect on some of the events I've just read. It's really funny actually, looking back on it now. The reason I'm using this date is because there's a post here, which is fairly significant, but I don't want to backlog it because it contains a lot of extra fluff that I just don't want to include. Basically, this is around the time I began cutting myself. I don't do it anymore... well, not much. Only when I'm really angry at the world (usually one or both of my parents) and I want to punish them by inflicting damage on myself. It's also strangely relieving. That's the significant part.

Anyway, looking back is strange. All of these things that happened then seem so long ago. I'm such a different person now. Yet I'm the same. Let me show you why, quoting some of my post from over 2 years ago.

"hi again! i'm coping...my defense system is up and running..."
And if you read one of my recent entries, you'll see that I say a similar thing about my emotions and my defense mechanism.

"i'm beginning to think i'm some emotionless..thing..i can't cry...my defense systems are working a little TOO well...lol....i dunno...i just..waah..."
I still think I can be emotionless when I want to or feel that I need to appear so.

"and right now i feel i really need to cry..it's like this big pressure in my chest...this big thing dying to be released..but it can't...and it hurts...alkfjlajfl blah.."
I still get that feeling.

*meeps*
That is all.