Subject: *one fucking big sigh*
Feeling: Scared
Hearing: Korn - Freak On A Leash

Heyyy. I'm tired, stressed, demotivated and everything else that you can think of that's negative. Life is crazy. This is my first official entry, so I'm making it a non-narrative, proper one. Man. I don't really know what to say. I'm scared? Yes. I'm afraid of everything. The future and what it holds mostly. This is why I like looking back on the past. Things that have already happened, safe and known. I like change, but the future is just too incomprehensible at the moment.

Yeah. I can't believe that I actually went through all of the last year and half's entries on my livejournal. I only backlogged the important events that actually made sense. Not the meme's or the ones that were in the moment, describing what I felt.

Reading back on everything is really nostalgic. I remembered when I started smoking. The promises I make every year... the same ones. My past new years. Just... everything. It seems so far away... and it is, but it isn't, if that makes any sense at all.

Anyway... I better get some sleep.

P.S. The music just changed to, Cruisin - Gwyneth Paltrow and that guy... man... what an old song!!!