Subject: Blah. Gah. *Scream* FRUSTRATION!
Current Mood: Pissed Off
Current Music: Tamia - Officially Missing You

Long time no proper update. Right now I don't know whether to laugh or cry... or to do both. On the one hand... yes, he does like me and it's out in the open now and all... but on the other... we both know that he's "bound by his relationship" and I feel as if there's nothing I can do but wait... if it ever does end. So be happy that he does like me or be sad that he's not supposed to? Or both? I don't know! I'm so confused... I get so many mixed signals from him it's crazy. I think he wants me to call him... I think he wants me to like him... but maybe it's just me? I don't know! GAH! I'm so lost... but at least I can be happy at the fact that someone out there actually likes me... might possibly even think of me... all I can do is hope that something goes wrong while they're on their holiday... no... that's bitchy of me... oh fuck that... I want to be a bitch. Knowing what I know I want more now... now that I know the truth... it's like... in some oddly odd way there's some hope... god damn the circumstances... god damn it all. I finally like someone decent who fucking likes me back... fuck fuck fuck... that's right I'm fucking mad. One is gay, one is married, one lives on the other side of the world and now this... fucking oath. Someone somewhere up there doesn't want me to be in a relationship.

Okay this post ended up more negative than I expected... *breathes*
Hehe... it's okay... I'm fine... really...

Hm...