I want to run away to England and live happily ever after.

Oh well.

Subject: Like a train on tracks.
Feeling: Bouncy!!! *boing*
Hearing: Let Me Be With You - Round Table

Well... to stop all those advice giving posts and to update everyone on what's going on, here I am! I left school not the last Wednesday, but the one before that. It was all very surreal and I suppose it still is. Lots of the same reactions and questions. Now here I am and I feel good. I don't regret it. I start my new job not tomorrow but the next Sunday and it'll be mighty fun! Hmm... so life is moving forward and I'm content right now.

Subject: Ah... the trials and tribulations.
Mood: Distressed
Hearing: SOAD - B.Y.O.B.

I know nobody reads this... but I feel the need to discuss this topic with no one in particular; I'm thinking about leaving school. Yes I've gone through the pros and cons and I can see the benefits of staying... but is it worth the unhappiness? Isn't my happiness more important than education? I can always resume study when I'm ready, when I'm more motivated. I want to do it on my own terms. I'm intelligent. I know what I'm capable of. I'm comfortable with myself to know that I'll make it in whatever I choose to do it, but I need to do it when I want to. *shrug* I don't know! I'm so conflicted right now. And I know a lot of people would prefer me to just sit through it and bear it... but why? When I'll probably just screw it up. That's a year and a half of my life wasted. I'd rather think about what I want to do while earning money and doing what I want to.

I feel like I've lost control of my life. I'm floating around with no goal and completely unmotivated. If I do this... I'll feel like I'm grabbing some shred of my life back.

But I don't know if I'm doing this for the right reasons yet.

I'm so scared though.

Subject: Wake up! It is time to occur!
Feeling like: Artistic
Listening to: Thicke - Brand New Jones

Hrm... Damn Mish and her good links... and... damn me and my subconscious self-sabotaging-ness. I hate me. I am my own arch rival!!! Aiieee! Anyway, I really have nothing intelligible to say... so I'll just say goodnight. Oh and...

From Otaku Avatar Maker

Goodnighty-night-night!

Subject: A day surfing blogger... and other thoughts
Feeling: Melancholy.
Hearing: Jack Johnson - Cupid

Well I spent majority of today surfing blogger... just clicking next. (Mini bitch: So many bad colour schemes coupled with ugly fonts and "ppl who tok lyk dis n tink der fuli sik". I can stand it to an extent... as long as it's legible. If it takes me more than 3 takes to try and decipher what it says, then it pisses me off. aLsO iT iS sO nOt CoOL tO TyPE liKE tHiS. It just makes it even harder for me to read... and usually the people who type like that also talk "lyk dis". I used to do it. But that was when I was THIRTEEN! Also, I'm not elitist and I'm not saying that my design is perfect and/or the best - it's not. But... are people colour blind?!?! Oh and I'm not saying my English is perfect either... but I try! I really do. Speaking of which... funny article about the disintregration of the English language here. < / end rant >) Funny... I was going to talk about how, when I was looking at everyones blogs, they all write the same and as though lots of people care. But here I am putting up links to articles as though people read mine and care. Ah well. That didn't make any sense... I didn't know how to word it... how people write to cater for so many...

Oh so it's not all about bitching, I ran into some very amusing blogs. Maybe later I'll put proper links to them, but for now, I'm not so sure.

http://theconcretedonkey.blogspot.com/
A teachers funny musings...

http://mixtape-uk.blogspot.com/
The way this guy writes is amusing...

http://weili929.blogspot.com/
Just cute to look at... that's all.

http://sketchnframe.blogspot.com/
Just the first entry amused me...

http://zayzayem.blogspot.com/
An Aussie guy in Japan. Lots of typos but amusing nonetheless.

That's about all I really wanted to say. I just felt like conforming to all that "catering writing" (I don't know what else to call it...) and typing some nice long and procrastinatory entry.

Did anyone else realise how hot Jake Gyllenhaal is?

Subject: Let's give love a try...
Mood: Irate
Music: Beyonce ft. Luther Vandross - The Closer I Get

*sigh* Well... today was unproductively productive. I added "t3h s3x0r" part of my blog... heh... looking at all those pictures... But anyway... yeah. What else? I've gone through ALL of my old entries. Fuck that took long and I can't believe I bothered to. I just moved the important ones into this blog... but I suppose it doesn't really matter considering I'm keeping the other one intact. One day I think I'm going to print out all of my entries and put them somewhere, just so I have them. Why? Because... I don't know! Because I want to!

I feel like something sweet to drink... like coke... or... chocolate milk... or something. What else??? That's all really... just updating for the sake of updating. I could go on about how fast time has gone... but I won't... since I go on about time far too much. *sigh's again* I think my next update will be something narrative... haven't done that in a while. I'm not very good at it but oh well.

Lurrv Arrlexxer