Subject: It could all be so simple, but you'd rather make it hard
Current Mood: Optimistic
Current Music: Lauryn Hill - Ex Factor

I woke up feeling sick so now I'm sitting at home, I think - actually, I know - that my mum will call my dad and tell him I'm acting up again. But I'm not. Really.

I don't feel sick anymore, but I feel inspired! I felt like making a new blog with my thoughts so I went to blogger.com and I remembered how I'd gone there before and looked at a notable blog. I'd forgotten how brilliant it was...how inspiring!

I've never had an idol before, but I think I do now.

http://alexthegirl.com

She is brilliant and inspiring and my new idol (she writes!)! Here's some stuff she's done...

February 08th, Love

Being bedridden for the last several days, I've been subjected to too much tv and pitiful women's magazines. I have seen it all, the lies. It never really bothered me before, but it does now.

Valentines day.

Women bitching and moaning how their man doesn't bring them flowers. People saying they won't get married without the big ring. Men asking their women to put on sexy clothing and shake it like a hard martini. Whatever. That's not romance, that's not love, that's just illusion. If you want to build a relationship on that, you're not building a strong foundation.

I'll tell you what love is. Tomorrow I get to see my husband after being away from him for a week. I won't be totally recognisable to him, my face all distorted and swollen with lots of stitches and blackened eyes. I move slowly, with effort, and my speech is very quiet. I won't be able to run up to him when he picks me up, I won't be able to kiss him and hugging him will have to be gently. But I know that he won't mind one bit. To him, I'll be the most beautiful girl. He'll tell me how he missed me, he'll care for me by making me tea and tucking me in at night. I won't feel like an inconvenience or an ugly monster. He'll be patient with me. He'll love me.

That's your romance right there. The other stuff, it's either fluff or icing depending on what you already have. If he doesn't buy you flowers every week or write you love poems by candle light every night, how much does that matter if you know you're unconditionally loved? We need to wake up and redefine romance and get real. Really.

There are more inspiring type things...just read it. Wow...I've never had an idol before...